Silence...

Okay, so I hope that based on my silence you've got that I'm not pregnant... 

A friend of ours is...

And my "sort of" sister-in-law... 

They were sticking at two, but they decided to go for three...

Delighted sigh... 

So our time to go for it is between Christmas and New Year, with the baby making day being New Years Eve, we're ready, back seat of the car warmed up, couple of plastic beakers of beer ready to go and final year of school ahead... 

Okay so not the last thing, but the above seems to help everyone else reproduce so that's my mindset for the next week.  Out comes my cheerleaders outfit! 

Wish us luck! 

Thanksgiving...

I am thankful for, 

My husband... 

He's amazing.

My dogs... 

Always happy to see me. 

My cat...

Always happy to see me with food. 

My house...

It's small, but perfect.

My job... 

It pays the bills.

My health... 

It keeps me going.

Love, Life and Liberty...

and Snoopy.

Okay... We're ready...

Ready to get down to the baby making game.

Ready to "put the boot in".

Ready to give it our "best shot".

We've done our home-work and this is it... 

This is baby-making week...

I'm fertile and ready to hump away at it! ;o)

Aaachhooo... 

I do have an unpleasant cold though, but we'll get over that.

Sorry for the silence...

So this month was a no go 

No Baby

But I still feel good about it all 

Try again next month 

Woo hoo

More baby-making fun

My poor husband. 

Fear and Hope

I don't think I've ever felt quite so anxious about my period before.  Well except when it was running a day or two late and I was concerned I could be pregnant.  

We've always used birth control but still, they're only 98% effective at their best and you can still be that little bit afraid.  

But it got me to thinking... 

We live our lives in fear, afraid I could be pregnant, afraid I won't get pregnant, afraid that I might lose my job (been there), afraid of loss of health (been there too), afraid of debt, afraid of death of loved ones (sort of been there).  I've been afraid of all these things happening and when they did/do/will it was scary and stress inducing and resulted in hair loss. (That happens to me a lot)

But... 

I survived it all.

I lived through it all.

It didn't kill me, I'm not sure if I'm stronger, I'm definitely wiser, I've learnt from every occasion. I think I've been bettered by most of them - well apart from the hair loss. 

I don't want to go through any of those fears again. 

Nope.

No siree bob. 

But I do hope I'm pregnant.  I think that's what I've learnt from all of the above.  It's about hope, keeping your fingers crossed, looking to the future and keeping your chin up.

And saying yes when the nurse asks if you want a sleeping pill. 

It's not good trying to sleep in a hospital!

Perfect Day

Okay, so apparently according to everything I've read. 

I research.

I like to research things before I do them.

I research good therefore.

Saturday Evening was the night for us to get busy, get down to it, get the hump on. 

We didn't.

Cause himself was in another country for the night, watching sport.  So we made up for it when he got back... late last night... we humped and then just to be sure... we humped again. 

So I could be pregnant right now.  

I'm pretty sure I'm not. 

I don't feel any different and I think Saturday was the night to do it. 

Fingers crossed though! 

Getting the practice in...

So, we've put plenty of practice in over the weekend but this week is it.

Baby-making week...

It's gonna be back-breaking work!

But someone's got to do it.

Sigh... 

Pre Pregnancy Pills...

So, I did it, I went into the Pharmacy yesterday and picked up my pre-conception vitamin tablets.  

These are very important to take, they contain folic acid and a bunch of other stuff that is crazy important to healthy foetus making. 

They did however have a pack that had them for Daddies and Mummies.  So I got that one and have started my husband on them too.  

As it is well written... It takes two people to... 

Have a fight,

Do the tango,

Make a baby! 

Now I just have to sort out the rest of my diet, organic fruit and veg, no fast-food and lots of red meat and iron filled produce.  I have an anaemic tendency so it'll help to have lots of iron coursing through my system. 

Right, so food shopping this evening it is. 

What is the world doing to me...

So, I've had a funny 24 hours.

Good friends of mine and "B"'s had a baby yesterday evening at 5.30pm.  We're very happy about this, it's really great news!  A little boy that they've called "D". This is great news!  They're also the first of us to have a baby, so we're very happy and all my friends are also delighted.  The child's huge too... It looks about ready to pick up an iPhone and start arranging meetings!  Very, very cute. 

But here's the bit where I get a wee bit jealous, talking to the mummy she told me it was their "New Year's Resolution" to go for a baby. 

It's October!  So they were trying for two weeks? 

Two Weeks! 

Then when I'm messing on my iPhone I discover I've missed a couple of emails, from my Mum and my Uncle. 

It's also great news, my cousin and his wife, who got married last year, are also pregnant!  

How cute is this kid, one hand behind it's head, sitting back, relaxing and chilling out.  It even looks like it's got it's legs crossed. 

This is the first baby to be born in my entire close family, on both sides.  

I'm the oldest of all my cousins, I was the first to be married, first to buy a house still though, I am glad for my, as yet, unmade-baby to be, it sucks to be the first doing everything. 

However, I'm just a wee bit jealous. 

Only a teeney weeney wee bit... 

Fertility...

I suppose I should give you my family history.

It took my parents four years to have me, then another four to have my sister!  It turns out I'm not the kinda chick who gets knocked up easily. 

That being said, I was on the pill until this time last year, when we discovered I'd had a stroke (that's a whole different post to be sent in the future).  So we've been unofficially trying for the past year, but according to the records I've been keeping I'm pretty much back to the 28 days cycle - I tell you, that took a while to get back in the rhythm. 

So I should be very fertile next Tuesday 25th right through to the 31st.  So lots of baby-making is to take place then.  

Of course I've started taking my pre-baby vitamins, I don't know what sorts are available where you live but I believe the most important thing to take is Folic Acid.  So my pills are loaded with Folic. 

Which reminds me, it's pill taking time!! 

First Post...

So, I suppose I should start off with the usual disclaimer... 

This is going to be personal and hopefully not too intimate.  Although, I should explain why I've decided to do it anonymously, could you imagine talking about baby-making and your Mum discovering it, although my Mum is still quite cool, it just doesn't feel right to publicly announce to the world that we're going down the baby making route!  Plus, my friends would have no fear announcing to my husband that we "apparently had a great time" last night, or every time I decide not to drink to have them all racing to this blog to see if it worked.

But I've always been a talker and that seems to be the way that I get through, around or over things.  So I'm going to talk to you - if you're out there? 

Hello?  Anyone? 

So here we go...